Why am I here? And why have I decided to share my story with the world? I guess you could say I've recently gone through some huge life changes. Not only did I recently reach the dreaded 3-0, but was unexpectedly dumped by Mr. Good On Paper (otherwise known as GOP).
This story is not about the death of a relationship, but instead my re-entry into the world as a single mom. Instead of harping on what I could have done differently, or what I did wrong, I'm choosing to focus on the belief that I deserve something beautiful. It's time for me to open my heart and mind to discover what it is that makes me happy.
I've never been the "typical" mom. I don't have any desire to be a PTO board member, run school fundraisers, or spend my free time scrapbooking. Instead, I'd much rather have random dance parties around the house while singing at the top of our lungs, building forts using all the sheets in the linen closet, and sometimes deciding at the end the day that we would much rather have ice cream for dinner. I'm sometimes frazzled, often times laughing, all while usually wearing a fabulous outfit.
The focus of this blog will not be about my son. **Side note: Before you start angrily pounding on the keyboard and sending me hate mail, I want to make it clear that my son comes before anyone or anything and always will.
Rather, I want to use this as a way to rediscover me. The woman who used to confidently lock eyes across the room with the most gorgeous man in the bar. The woman who rocked 4 inch heels and mini skirts. Sure, I may have a few more gray hairs, but I'm also someone that has been through hell and back and has figured out what I DON'T want in life (still trying to pinpoint the "WANT" part).
Instead of having a damn pity party, I'm going to focus on the a few short term goals for this summer:
1. Create a signature cocktail
2. Travel alone to Bali in October
3. Learn how to use my SLR camera
4. Take a last minute road trip with the Dude (my son) without a destination in mind
5. Make time to meet up with girlfriends to have brunch by the beach
6. Butterflies ;)
"Beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it's the middle that counts the most. Try to remember that when you find yourself at a new beginning. Just give hope a chance to float up. And it will, too... " - Hope Floats
**PS.. It's a wig ;)
I love it that you have chosen to travel ALONE to Bali. I did that once, after a painful divorce. Went to Hawaii all by myself. It was such a beautiful time for introspection. I will never forget it.
ReplyDeleteAs for road trip with the Dude, depending on how much time you have, it would be so much fun to just follow old Route 66 and see all the quaint and quirky roadside diners, motels, and assorted oddities.
Will you share your recipe for the Signature Cocktail when you get it nailed down? Uncle Bobby wants to open a restaurant. We could feature your cocktail and call it the "Lizzy Q."!